mar. 4th, '24 — removed dream journal and tech page due to inactive use. considering remodeling the site again for more simplicity.

feb. 11, '24 — finally wrote something for my writing page [gasp]. updated music obsession.

feb. 10, '24 — new art added to the digital art page. new journal entries. created the dream journal page.

feb. 9, '24 — new journal entry. created the 'tech' page, which i may or may not keep up.

feb. 7, '24 — new journal entry. updated writing page.

feb. 5, '24 — new journal entry. updated the art page and astrology page.

feb. 3, '24 — added a disclaimer for the bookshelf page and credit for the lace borders cuz i forgot.

feb. 2, '24 — bookshelf page created. new astrology entry. updated current music obsession. small tweaks on other pages.

jan. 28, '24 — new journal entry.

jan. 27, '24 — updated the shrine page, which is still a WIP. new journal entry.

jan. 26, '24 — created the astrology page.

jan. 25, '24 — updated the music page and the about page.

jan. 24, '24 — added a music page that got a bit verbose. 🗿 i ain't taking it down tho. oh, and new journal entry, fixed the 'before you enter' page, and added mobile adaptability.

jan. 22, '24 — version 2.0 launched. super happy for what i did, took the whole weekend to build it.

thank you to Simon @ Solaria for the lace borders and tutorial.

current music obsession

last edited: february 4th, 2024

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feeling creative again

february 6th, 2024 @ 12:24 pm

currently listening to: Lefty by Title Fight

It's a nice day outside this afternoon, although a bit chilly, but I don't mind. I'm going to sit outside on the porch for a while and get some sun, and I'm finally going to open up that writing document for my fan fic. I know I said I was going to do it a few weeks ago, but literally after I said that, I came back home from my walk and immediately passed out in bed. But, now that my sleep schedule is decent again, I won't feel hammered so early into the day. Yippie.

I'm also refurbishing this poem I wrote a while ago about my disillusionment around gender/sex and how I'll never be loved, or treated in general, in the way I want to because of it. I'll probably talk about it more later but I hate explaining shit that I feel could be better said in writing. Or maybe left unsaid all together, since I'm not hung up about it anymore. It, being my gender and sex. I've overall accepted my fate. I think. LOL.

Anyway, goodbye, I'm going to sit outside. I also need to clean my room again. It's an absolute mess, and I got a new bookshelf which has been sitting on my floor, unbuilt, for like a month now.

2:44 pm

Okay I'm back for a small update: I opened the document and skimmed the last few chapters I wrote. I avoid looking at the first few more than I avoid looking at the most recent ones, speicifcally the first chapter, because I find it too cringe and I can't wait to go back and edit it. However, as I was skimming, even though I do find it cringe, it actually isn't that bad? I don't want to like hype myself up too much but I feel like this fic has been some of my best writing in terms of prose and pacing. I challeneged myself a lot in 2023 in regards to improving my writing, and I feel like compared to a lot of the other stuff I wrote last year, this fic has been the most coherent and consistent body of work I've written thus far. So, for that, I'm actually fine with it as a whole.

There are some things I desperately want to change, like the first chapter specificaly, and other random interactions and dialouge that makes me cringe. I'll have to do that once I'm finished though, since I don't really like editing while I write. The most I'll do is line edit because pacing, flow, clairity, and specificity are the most important things to me while writing so I take my time in making sure those things are up to my standards in relation to my skill level.

I think I'm also very happy with it overall because I logged into my old Wattpad account last night to find something, and I didn't realize how many drafts and old writing I had there. My writing style and skill level now compared to 2-3 years ago is sooo much better. When I revamp the writing page, I'll probably have a section where I compare and contrast old and new writing with the things I've learned. I do everything independently. Like I never went to school for writing or art or anything, and in grade school, because I went to awful public schools before homeschooling, I didn't really have any opportunity to take classes that were outside of the standardized curriculum. Sometimes I wonder who I would be if I just had access to more, financially and academically. I don't want to be wasted potential.

Anyway, I think I've also figured out the issue I was facing with this fic, and it's to completely scrap the outline I had written out for chapter 8. that storyline did nothing for it as a whole and it only tripped me up and distracted more than it helped. Maybe I'll post some excerpts here before I publish it on AO3.

Speaking of AO3, I was looking at my inbox again. God, the comments I got were so nice. I had gotten like 2 hate comments but I didn't care too much because overall the comments I got were really positive and sweet. I can't wait to post again, cringe and all.